I’m getting there…

I’m alive. I did not get out unscathed but I’m alive.

I’m not 100% okay but I will be.

I’m not yet back on social media but I’m starting to talk more with my family.

I finally got out of the house today.

Baby steps.

What I Do During Dark Days?

I can say that most of my life, I have been pretty much aware of my personal struggles when it comes to mental health. What I was not good at was acknowledging it and giving importance to it. Mental health seems to have a big red flag on it that people sometimes choose not to talk about it instead of acknowledging it. I think it comes from the fact that others sometimes confuse it with mental illness. While the two are very much related, attending to one’s mental health doesn’t automatically mean that you are suffering from anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder and other types of mental illness. Taking care of your mental health is like taking care of your physical health and everyone should really put an importance to it. Continue reading

Residual Thoughts: Scrappy Little Nobody by Anna Kendrick (Audiobook)

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I used to frown upon celebrities launching their own book, regardless if it’s an autobiography or something else. That’s why I never imagined myself consuming a content written by a celebrity until Anna Kendrick.

Back in 2016, my friend was so excited about the release of this book. She loves Anna Kendrick and I do too, but though I want to read more about this quirky little woman, I wasn’t feeling the great urge to own the book immediately. Fast forward to a few months ago, another friend of ours mentioned that she was listening to an audiobook version of Scrappy Little Nobody. Continue reading

Residual Thoughts: Never Not Love You (2018)

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It was late 2015 when I started following JaDine (James Reid and Nadine Lustre). It was during the On the Wings of Love hype that I got curious and decided to watch a single episode of the show. From then on, I became a fan.

For someone who is following the loveteam/real-life couple and a fan of Direk Tonet Jadaone, Never Not Love You was the project I have been waiting for. Given Direk Tonet’s usual flair in creating stories that hits close to home and has the right amount of angst, I kept wishing for a movie. Continue reading

Where is Charlie?

It’s been a while and for the first time ever, my inability to blog more is not because of a dark cloud (although it was still very present at times) but because of life and work. Typing those words just makes me feel giddy because doesn’t it sound productive? Haha. Since the last time I posted, I have started boxing, signed a new (freelance) contract and started working on my social life by meeting friends more frequently.

Despite having an active lifestyle this past month, I am starting to miss the fun, series/kdrama addict, and reader Charlie. No matter how much I try to consume any media or start reading a book, my concentration just flies out of the window. The most I’ve read are one-shot fanfictions because I can’t even focus on those lengthy ones and I also can’t watch a Youtube video that is more than 10 minutes.

Is it weird? It’s definitely weird.

I keep wishing I could find the right book that would make me could go back to reading. I will not even pressure myself to finish it ASAP, just as long as I go back to it. No re-reads. I feel like my books are staring at me while I’m writing this.

I also miss watching kdramas and watching them while it’s still ongoing. I haven’t even watched Running Man since the Olympics. Man, I am failing.

A lot of things in my life are based on the right timing so I really hope April is the right time for me to get back to the game. I really really want to get back to the game.

Mumbo Jumbo of Thoughts

Several weeks ago, I have decided to take a screen break to rest my eyes. That means I was not allowed to use laptop, iPad, or phones. When a thought nagged my brain and wouldn’t let me sleep, I decided to use the old ways to express my thoughts. The following will be a direct transcription of those thoughts. Here goes…

Written: 2018-02-18

I can’t believe I’m actually writing this on pen and paper at 3:30am but my brain won’t SHUT UP! In case you’re wondering why I’m doing this, it’s because I currently have a migraine that may or may not be related to my eyes. I definitely need a new pair of glasses. I’m trying to avoid any screens since yesterday that’s why I’m writing instead of typing this. By the way, in case someone sees this draft, I would just like to let them know that my penmanship is actually better than this. I just took a long break from writing manually. Continue reading

Crying Charlie

To continue with the crying over things theme from my previous post, I thought about sharing this song that has made me cry when I first saw and continues to do so every freakin’ time. It’s a Korean song but I swear, not all media I consume are Korean. I hope you would also like it. You can prepare some tissues before clicking play. Continue reading

Residual Thoughts: Part-Time Idol (2017)

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I’ve been planning to watch more Korean dramas with just a couple of episodes ever since I’ve watched Page Turner, Splash Splash Love, and Queen of the Ring. I know the answer to this is to watch more web dramas but I was in a slump towards the end of 2017 that my to-watch list just piled up.

As a part-time Netflix content browser, I came across Part-Time Idol and seeing that AKMU’s Lee Su Hyun is part of the show, I clicked on it faster than I could. I have been into AKMU’s music and I was excited to see her on this. Continue reading

Ben&Ben in Duma

2017 has open me to a lot of new things and one of them is music. One of the artists I grew to love last year is Ben&Ben, which is an OPM indie folk band. Last December, my bff and I decided to hop on a bus to see the band in Dumaguete City, Negros Oriental. I’m from the Occidental so that’s roughly seven hours away from where we’re from. But aside from seeing one of our favorite bands, the fact that the event was a fundraising project by The Noche Buena Project was a reason enough to get on board.

We didn’t make any plans about the trip other than seeing the band. We didn’t even have a place to stay so we spent the last hour of the bus ride trying to find an affordable overnight place where we can rest before we face another 7-hour bus ride the following day. Luckily, we found Flying Fish Hostel. It was a bit far from the city center but man, the place was amazing. It’s also very comfortable and suited for travellers who wouldn’t mind meeting a few new people from the place. Continue reading